Another day another Dollar......"wait I didn't work today""

I really miss working, it has been since January 1996 that I have worked.  I am still fighting a sinus infection.  This gives me headaches which is best when I sleep.  I wish I could get up at 8 A.M. to be to work at 9 A.M..  My aid come in at 10 A.M. each morning M-F to help me get up, take my pills, get showered and dressed for the day.  If I am having a bad day, they bring me a washcloth so I can wash off then stay in bed.  Today I slept till two pm, what a bum. 

I am still a bit down, although my mortgage company has promised to look into a new mortgage for us.  This will free up about 700.00 in cash each month.  That would allow me to go to Fibro and Fitigue Center and get some treatment for this "CRUD". 

Just existing is not living.... and when you feel so bad it's hard to get up and get out and do things for others.

Today is Sunday and my day to get out of the house!

If I am feeling well enough, I get to go to Church and then out to lunch with friends.  This is a highlight of my week.  I have to be careful not to do anything on Saturday.  That excludes using my computer, but not lifting or anything else I know I should not do.  It's not hard for me to end up in bed for two to three days because I did something like pull some weeds in the yard.  I also changed out a controller for the watering system and put myself in bed for four days with uncontrollable pain.  I know this sounds stupid but it's the way it is. 

I am on just about the top of pain medications.  I take 240mg of morphine daily along with vicodin 5/500 that I can take up to four a day.  Sometimes I am just so exhausted I need to sleep endless for 24 to 48 hours.  Because of my sinus infection I have been unable to use my "V Pap Adapt" machine to help with the sleep apnea.  I feel that I want to try it again tonight.

Please ask questions and I will be glad to answer them.