This day was a bad one for me and I spent the whole day in bed. Pain and grogginess was over whelming this day. I did get up to eat twice this day because there was no one to bring it to me. I will be very happy when Deborah gets back from her visit to her folks. These days I don't even want to stay awake. I am taking 240mg of Morphine(daily) and still the pain is bad. I have vicodin to take as needed and many days I need it along with the morphine to be able to stand the pain.
Thursday:
What a great day! Today is the anniversary of the day that Deborah S Gowman Married me in Phoenix, AZ. It was 33 years ago today and I have been the better because of it. What a wonderful wife I have and what a joy to spend my life with her.
Jerry & Deborah
A little know fact is that 80% or more spouses leave the one that gets chronically ill. This is a US statistic, it's hard to believe but is true. My wife has stood beside me even when we and everyone else didn't know much about Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue. When my family (parents and siblings) abandoned me because they didn't understand my illnesses. My wife and sons stood beside me and sometimes in front of me to try to let people know that I was really ill. How people can think that I decided to go to bed for the first 14 months. I had build a large computer company, we had a wonderful home and I had a great reputation in the community. They somehow decided that I just stopped working and was playing sick. I am proud of my wife and sons for standing up for me.
My father has come to grips with I am sick, he still doesn't understand how it works, but he is now speaking to me again and came to visit this summer. My siblings still will not return an e-mail or take a phone call. I am sorry for them. Since I was diagnosed, both my sons along with three first cousins and a second cousin have been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue. Now we know that it's a decease that can be found in families. I am willing to do whatever it takes to help them find a cure for this CRUD before it hits my sons and possibly grandchildren. To those siblings that are full blooded with me they can say I am crazy but they are just as likely to have Fibro/Chronic Fatigue as I do.
